I was on a long, lovely, lingering run. The sun peek-a-booed through the clouds, the breeze cooled me and the streets were quiet. My soul exulted in the beauty around me. I could not wipe the grin off my face.
I asked the Lord a question, something that had been on my mind for awhile.
“Lord, can You tell me or show me what You think about me?”
I felt a need for encouragement. I had been asking on and off for a few days. I didn’t really sense anything or feel anything from Him. This didn’t bum me out but I was curious. I waited expectantly. Quietly. Imagining the kind of “thing” He might do to tell me He loved me. To be honest, I was expecting to be “wowed!” Perhaps something cool I could blog about.
What I heard instead made me laugh out loud.
“Meg, You know what I think about you.” End of sentence. Silence. (crickets chirping…)
I literally laughed out loud because guess what? He was right. I DO KNOW WHAT HE THINKS OF ME!
Tears welled up in my eyes. Tears of joy and gratitude. You see, for most of my life I questioned whether the Lord could really, really love me. I could never measure up (in my own eyes.) I felt like a second class Christian, not quite spiritual enough or good enough.
What changed? Reading the Bible and seeing God as He truly is changed me. It changed my view I had about God and it changed my view I had about myself. He wooed me with His words.
Thus the tears of joy because deep in my soul, God painstakingly etched His love and care and commitment to me. I no longer doubt that He loves me. It’s miraculous and in that moment of Him speaking, I felt so loved and known.
I share this because many times we do not “feel” Him. The truth of the matter is that He is present whether we “feel” Him or not. It’s a matter of truth over feelings. Fight those feelings with the truth. Tell yourself the truth or let Him tell you. Immerse yourself in His word and believe what He says about you.
When was there a time when you needed truth over feelings? How did God show up for you in that moment?