If you are younger than thirty, just don’t even bother. You will not understand any of this. The title should be a warning. Tread carefully, dear reader. There will be outbursts. And tears. And maniacal laughter. This was written under severe hormonal stress so I am not responsible for what is published. So, my hormones are plotting against me. And every other woman I know who is in the vicinity of my age. If you are thinking, “deal with it”, I will cut you. Keep your thoughts to yourself, for cussing out loud. Where was I? Oh yes, my hormones have taken out on a contract on me. How do I know this? Let me count the ways.
For one thing, I have been tracking my weekly emotions. And every single week this month, I have had days (read: weeks) where all I want to do is stay in bed, cry, eat my feelings* and generally assassinate anyone who comes near me. Now, in the past, this has happened once in a while but now it’s every cussing week.
|Chili fry therapy.
For another, I vacillate between the depths of despair-everybody-hates-me to top o’ the world I-can-do-anything feelings. All in the space of three minutes. I cry. A lot. Weeping, snot-inducing, self-pity tears. Every week of this month, I have had a cry-fest. Normally, I cry once a month or so. This is now a weekly occurrence. I can almost put it on the calendar, it’s so regular. And I am waiting for it to be a daily occurrence because I just know that’s where I am headed. In fact, thinking about it makes me want to cry. I’ll be back. Sniff.
Don’t even talk to me about sex. I LOVE SEX! Did I just write that out loud? No, that hasn’t changed but while I am talking about it, one can simply not have sex when one has TEENAGERS in their house 24/7. Not a hormonal rant but a parental one.
Many of you are thinking, is this what her blog is going to be about? Her going through menopause? (Quietly unsubscribe.) It’s okay. I understand. And no, my blog isn’t going to be about me going through menopause. Mwuuuhahahahaha! (Have you ever wondered how the heck to write out that maniacal laugh? Spell check? Auto correct? Help?)
Sorry, where was I? Yes, this is also what happens when I am in a hormonal meltdown. I can’t keep track of what I was saying. SQUIRREL!
Cruella is becoming my BFF. She understands me. And now, I understand her! She was just going through menopause!! That’s why she wanted to murder sweet little puppies for a coat!
My therapist, Dr. Phil’s wife, says that taking black cohosh should help with hot flashes. I am not sure I want to ingest something that sounds like I dug it out of my garbage disposal. Speaking of hot flashes, I am not sure I am having those yet but I have woken up completely drenched in….wait, am I really telling you all this? I really do need an intervention. But my advice is to time it so that I am mid-weep, rather than mid-I-will-cut-you.
Well, I don’t know about you but this has helped me tremendously. Who needs a therapist? Just start a blog.
Would love to hear your thoughts. If you dare (wink!)
*the way my friends and I deal with our feelings, normally negative ones. We eat what we feel. Chili cheese fries, pizza and/or a double cheeseburger will suffice. Or a chocolate sundae. Entirely different than drinking your feelings which is never advisable and bad, very bad, children.
9 thoughts on “Rantings of a Hormonal Freakazoid”
Yes. Yes to all of it and yes to why???? It's worse than puberty, I think, and that's saying a lot.
LOLOLOL!!! Like I said, I am totally with you on all the above!!! It's at times like this that I'm glad I'm single and going through all this … :o)
I relate to this WAY more than I want to. T_T Gonna go find something to eat about it.
Meg..this is awesome! You nailed spelling of maniacal laughter BTW. I went to this party seven years ago just as Nicola was coming into my life. I like to say I looked at my future husband and instantly went into menopause! Happy to share how I dealt with it. Let's vox!
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I'm having a horrible time posting a comment, so if you find 4 from me…I'm sorry. I'll be brief. Try accupuncture for the hormone issues you are having. It has helped me tremendously. And yes, I hate needles just as much as the next person. It really isn't difficult, doesn't hurt and the benefits are amazing!
Praise God I found this blog. Your post is hilariously written…so well said. Comforting to know that I'm not the only one feeling as you have described. This was a really bad day for me…Our Saviour is looking after us…even to find words of encouragement from a blog. I found you thru flickr. One of your flickr posts brought me to your blog on Grace. Something I've been really really struggling with…the whole forgiveness thing. Someone really wronged me Big Time….sucked my self worrth and money, right out of me. Someone that claims to be one thing…but their actions never match their words and they just go thru life using people. Its been over a year….and I'm still having a very hard time letting the pain; die. Thank You so much for sharing your beautiful heart to the world…God is using you to help struggling people like me…I can't thank you enough for your words… and for caring.
I don't know if you will see my reply but you made my day by your comment. I am so glad you found me, too! Are we friends on Flickr?
I will be praying for you, my dear.
Oh Good !!! you saw the Praise !!!
I've been on flickr a couple of times… it tends to cause me much unwanted Anxiety…so, I'm on pause right now. Photography is very rewarding but also very Frustrating for me…and I'm trying to downsize my frustrations right now as I'm fighting through these Awful hormone battles. Whenever I come across your flickr stream; I Very much Enjoy it…you are very Talented and Gifted in Many ways. I don't think I've added you as a contact in the past —but as a sister in Christ; you are a friend in my heart.
Was wondering if you think that Genesis 3:16 has anything to do with this menopause hormonal, strung out dose of: Grief, and Craziness ??? If its not God's will…I think all medical research needs to focus on a cure 😉
What do you think? God's will….or satan attack….or, our polluted environment….or broken world after the fall of Adam/Eve ?
I will be praying for your too Meg 🙂